++luving u is lyk breating.... how can i stop?

++gone.

2005-06-08T01:54:00.000-07:00

so long i never update le.

this blog is officially dead le.

lols.

outdated and dying.

=)

half a year gone le.

looking forward to the next half

hopely it will be better.

=)

+stress.

2005-04-16T09:09:00.000-07:00

hmms.
2 weeks to exams.
beta buck up.
nothing much to say.

=)=)

+tutorial

2005-03-26T07:04:00.000-08:00

should i even be in 3/6.
i feel so dumb inside it.
maybe i am??
oh wells.
i am lyk in eng tutorial forever.
3 times change ppl
i 3 times all in.
argh
anyways i am teachers pet =)
*whoot whoot.
hahahs
=)=)

++hoildays=)

2005-03-11T06:14:00.001-08:00

hoildays
hoildays
hoildays
=)

2005-03-11T06:14:00.000-08:00

+heart-broken

2005-03-04T06:51:00.000-08:00

happy belated birthday to me =)

+saddd.

2005-02-26T07:28:00.000-08:00

oh wells.
how upsetting.
so much stuff happening.
haishs.
i AM NOT avioding her.
it is SHE who is avoiding me.
argh.
stop it.
i dun like her anymore.
I DUN.
i din even like her in the 1st place.
shut up with those rumours.

less than a week to my birthday.
HOW EXCITING =)=)
hahahas.
hope it will be a happy day.
these days had been rather upsetting.
=( haishs.
shhhs. it will be all gone.

rather distracted>>>
haish wad to do?
so much commitments.
so much stress.
so much work.
so much stuff to handle.
sometimes i wonder if i am readyyy.
haishs.

++sandee.

+happy

2005-02-23T02:12:00.000-08:00

how i wished everyday was today.
i am so happy today.
hahas
she particulary filled my day today.
=)
just a silly smile and a wave can get me so hyper.
hahahahs.
watever.

my birthdays coming.
blahs.
who cares.
i dun mind presents anyway.
hahahs.
i lurve pink.
i'm getting older =X

oh shitness. i failed my a maths.
i am like failing EVERYTHING lohs.
WHO CARES.
hahahs/

byesss.

++ cloud nine++

luvree.
sandee=)=)

++sadness.

2005-02-17T00:52:00.003-08:00

i am like so devastated nowadays.
so many stuff had happened.
my mood went hay-wire.
and i cant seem to do anything well.

and to make it worse
my room light the thing spolit.
and the man is coming next week.
just to fix it.
he thinks he is king or wad.
must wait so long for him to come.
sucks.

school sucks.
how many times do i have to say this.
i am failing ALL my subs.
except for social studies and history.
i'm in english tutorial.
how HUMUILATING.
my english is good. damn tat fat ass lopaz
i am dumb la.
should not even came to 3/6.
feel so unhappy and lagging.
HAISHS.

to make it WORSER.
i am distracted by SAD.
particualy thinking of SAD every min.
plus in the classrooms.
when the teacher is yakking away.
haishs. WHY. WHY.
i know so much stuff tat is happening.
tat makes it worse.
haish.
find it so hard to smile these days.

[i hate you but i love you]

[accidentally in love]

lurveee,
sandeeeeeee.

++sadness.

2005-02-17T00:52:00.002-08:00

++sadness.

2005-02-17T00:52:00.001-08:00

2005-02-17T00:52:00.000-08:00

com fixed=)

2005-02-09T05:07:00.000-08:00

yay-ness.
com is finally fixed=)
yay-ness.
so long since i ever felt so happy=)
hahas.

chinese new yr-
bleahs~
tis yr intake not bad lehs.
hahas.
ITS SHOPPING TIME =)=)=)
other than getting money i dun see wad else is there to look forward to chinese new yr.

school sucks la.
so much work.
so much stress.
so much problems.
so little fun.
=
sec 3 life really sucks.
i wanna be sec 2 again.

hmms. too much to say.
dunno how to say.
hahas.
dumbers.
anyway my msn cant work.
ARGH~

+com spolit

2005-01-16T23:05:00.000-08:00

hahas.
=)
my com is spolit yes.
and its finally gone for repair
and hopefully it will be at my house ready for use by
feb =)=)
hmms. school started.
sucks.
so many many many stuff to cope with.
=)
and i am sitting next to some one
crazy. and not in the right mind everyday.
and i have a ahem form teacher =X

lalalala.
=)
byyye.

2004-12-13T22:44:00.000-08:00

In my mind.
I can climb.
All the mountains tat surround me.
My spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly.
In my heart.
There's a spark.
That can light the world around me.
An open door, where i am sure dreams are.

It doesn't matter if i win.
Or the colour of my skin.
Cause the race is all about.
Believing in yourself.

And i dream.
I can run.
Like the wind.
And be strong.
When my heart just wants to give in.
I dream.
I can be.
The hero that's in me.
When i dream. i dream.

If there's a time.
In your life.
When the odds are so against you.
There's no defeat, if all you keep is pride.
First or last.
Slow or fast.
There's a dignity that makes you.
keep driving on, when worlds have come apart.

It doesn't matter rich or poor.
Or the things you have done before.
Cause the race is all about.
Believing in yourself.

And i dream.
I can run.
Like the wind.
And be strong.
When my heart just wants to give in.
I dream.
I can be.
The hero that's in me.
When i dream. i dream.

i lurve this song.
watched singapore idol.
the final showdown encore.
sad. cried. haishs.
but this is just a begining for him.
so all sylvester fans.
contiune to support him.
he so rocks our world! =)

let wad happen in american idol 2
happen in singapore idol.
let sly be more popular than TAT GUY who won.

read 8days.
got one person said tat
TAT GUY'S fan laughed at sly's fan when they cried.
WHATS YR PROBLEM?
laugh wad laugh? STUPID ASS.

guess wad oli voted for TAT GUY 900times.
leanadra votd for TAT GUY 750 times.
tats clearly the reason he won.
i dun care anymore.
sly won in my eyes.

on thurs going for camp till sun.
yups. hope it will be fun.
if ya still dun know.
my com is NOT fixed yet.
=)

christmas is coming.
anyone got buy pressies for me ma?
hahahs. =) =) =) =)
go buy kaes???? hahas.

oh ya i am fat okayss.
i am not a pole. i am like a million poles together.
hahahas. =)
but i am growing
and i cant stop eating.
hahahahas.

smiley

2004-12-09T01:59:00.000-08:00

i'm offically on a diet.
i'm soooooo heavy.
its unbelieve-able.
hahas.

anyways i'm pursuring guitar again.
yuppps. on wed played the whole day.
my fingers the skin peeling lohs.
=(

and sylvester so still rocks my world.
even though ppl may say he sucks.
he so rocks my world.
=)

-sly fan forever-

these days i am really a pig.
oink oink.
wake up at 12 plus
laze around.
sleep at 1-3am plus.
hahahas.

oink oink going sleep le.=)

++back.

2004-12-07T01:56:00.000-08:00

SYLVESTER SIM ALL THE WAY!
sylvester rocks! sylvester rocks! =)

sylvester din lose in my eyes.
he is my singapore idol.
=)

back from missions le.
very happening lahs.
and wells theres too much to say.
i miss thailand and the trip lahs.

at the singapore check out there i was lyk crying.
i tried to hold it back but i cant lah.
haishs. so just cried lohs.

my internet not fixed.
cant go online.
haishs.
so bored these days.
i dun feel lyk going out.
just wanna rot my time away.
hahas.

fustuarted.
i dun wanna think.
why am i faced with so many probs now?
thailand was so peaceful and nice.
hmmmms.

ppl come back being so enthu bout God.
me?
having mixed feelings.
i should settle all my probs 1st bah.
sorry God.
give me a few days kaes?

la la so fast next week camp.
then christmas
then sch open
then sec 3 le.
haishs.

smilesssss.
i'm backkkkkkkkk.
=)

+tomorrow.

2004-11-24T21:36:00.000-08:00

bye ppl.
i'm leaving for thailand tomorrow
hahas.
i will miss singapore idol.
i will miss sylvester.
hahas.
but i have to reach to the thai ppl out there.
so yups.
i just have to focus on my mission than other things.

yes i deleted the other entry liaos.
haishs.
i dunno wad am i feeling inside.
its all mixed up you know.
haishs.
i forgive the person but the thoughts keep coming back.
God please help me=)
haishs.
later have to have a heart to heart talk with God manx.

my bag is super big. its bigger than me can.
dumb. how am i gonna carry manx?
hmmms. i am so small size.
i JUST realised.
hees.

blahs. time really flies. its already one month gone.
hmms. soon open school le.
soon sec 3 le. so scary.
haishs. the future is so uncertain.
everytime i think of it my head hurts.
hahahas. really lahs.
hahahahs. sto-pid rights??

oh anyways i am gonna pick up guitar again.
and make sure i learn it with my whole heart and soul.
=)

+loveeeeee yewwwww.

+helppp.

2004-11-17T01:14:00.000-08:00

haishs.
my com spolit.
its never gonna be fixed.
haishs.
can anyone help?

anyways so sad tat the championis overle.
jeanette aw rocks man.
haishs.
the new show looks boring.

slyrocks.
i'mreallyscared tat he willbe out tis week.
somanypplsays tat h willbe out.
SUPPORTSLVSTER!
VOTE SYLVESTER!
=)

hahas.i'm mad.
=)

+com spoilt

2004-11-13T02:00:00.000-08:00

argh. my com is spolit again.
watever.
sly got in! =)
must contiuneto support him.
he rocks.

anyways i have to stop using vuglar words.
=)

anyways primary one boys are really good looking=)

hahas.
byes.
=)
tag me!!!!

+hmms.

2004-10-30T07:39:00.000-07:00

sly got in=)
chris got out=)
leandra is still in =(

anyways
i'm looking forward to 3/6
next yr.
hmms.
i bet i'm reg 40
again.
every year.
=X

+reflection.

2004-10-29T03:07:00.000-07:00

haix. school end today le.
the feeling is lyk so wired.
even through 2/6 was not an united class.
but i still lyk it a lot lahs.
the joys. the tears. the pain.
everything. 2 yrs just passed.
and the flabbergasters are split up.
and everyone on their own.
the feling sucks.
gosh. now i realised how much ilove 2/6.

nvm. wad can i do now?
look forward to 3/6 then
new friends.
new cliques.
new teachers.
enjoy the times before i regret it again.
haix. time passes so fast.
i tink 3/6 will be a loud class.
hahas. i have amelia with me =)=)=)
maybe i will love 3/6 too.
hahas. dumb.

tonight results night.
hopes sly gets in manx.
or else i will just cry lohs.
he did well last night.
hahas. =)=)=)=)=)
ppl call for him kaes?

still looking for a job.
argh! why cant i find one??
anyone have job to offer tell me kaes?
hahas. dumb.
=X

[why is it always so hard to say good bye?]

+why 3/6?

2004-10-28T02:07:00.000-07:00

damn.
i got into 3/6.
damn.
sucks lohs.
just when i start to love 3/8.
i got into 3/6.
DAMN.
should i opt down to 3/8
damn.
damn.
sucks.
comments please i need help.

sing idol today.
=X
theres too much in my mind now.
damn.

++messy life.

+damn you.

2004-10-27T03:30:00.000-07:00

today was an ass day.
we had tat archery shit.
sucks lahs. so damn heavy.
and i cant aim. =X
but i got hit the middle part also lahs.
then tat stoo-pig millipedie or centipedie
out of SO many socks attacted to mine.
maybe coz i'm TOO attractive=)
then teressa told me.
"sandra theres a millipedie at yr socks!"
i screamed.
everyone screamed.
i fling off my shoe.
i threw away my socks.
and stood there looking damn stupid.
dumb.

damn you 2.
so am i surposed to follow you?
i feel so extra when i try to join cheryl and shu yun they all for recess.
even though i know they are trying to make me feel in.
then wat bout you 2?
wads yr fucking prob?
i so hope we dun get into the same class.
its always lyk tat.
i should have just pon-ed school today lahs.
fuck you1 manx.
you(1) plan things and always leave me out
i always ask you(2) to go out and always cannot but whenever you(1) call u go out everytime can.
WATS YOUR FREAKING FUCKING PROB?
ass. damn pissed.

wats your bloody prob?
dun lyk sly then dun lyk lahs.
NO ONE ask u to open up yr bloddy ass mouth wad.
i din ask for yr bloody comments.
so wad if his eng is poor.
so wad if he is an ah beng.
so wad if YOU tink he dun sing good.
F.U.C.K off. damn you.

to me sly rocks.
and no one is gonna change tat fact.
fuck off those who dun lyk him.
i din ask u to say anything.

+++DAMN PISSED.

+dumb

2004-10-25T02:31:00.000-07:00

sunday i was too tired to come online.
went church. dumb.
watched my girl(i tink)
so sweet the story. so touching.
hahas. dumb.

my brain is too oppcupied by sylvester.
dumb.
i'm really scared he will be out tis week.
i'm bloody seriously 100% scared can?
esp after chatting with denyse.
=X she got to grab sly hands.
how lucky lohs. dumb.
nvm. continue to call for sly please.
please lahs. if he gets out.
i'm gonna be under depression.
if u are my friend u will at least call once for him. if ya need ppl to remind you give me a buzz i will remind you=) hahas.
PLEASE CALL FOR SLY=)

audition for the dumb ting was today.
dumb can? hahas. dun tink we can even get in. hate tat dumb heng. yuck.
dance today. so wet. yee. hahas. dumb.

+sylvester!!!

2004-10-23T08:13:00.000-07:00

i tink sylvester so rocks.
i'm scared he will be out.
people PLEASE vote for him lahs.
he so rocks.
i'm just mad.
he's one of the few ppl who can make me smile=)

went to river life today.
dumb.
was so bloody cold when we moved in fornt.
was writing to myself bout sylvester.
hahas.
was trying to tell myself how sylvester can warm me up and tat i am not cold.
it worked a bit lahs.
hahas.
dumb.

went to watch ouija board.
erms dumb lahs.
not really scary lahs.
dumb.

+++.dumb is my new fav word.+++

sucks.

2004-10-22T22:38:00.000-07:00

my results sucks.
can prepare to go 3/4 liaox.
din fail anything.
lyk mid yr.
but still so sucky. =X
wad to do? i was having HIGH fever when i was doing the maths paper 1 and 2 lohs.
maybe it was crazy for me to aim for 3/7.
can never make it there.
even if i make it i will go crazy in there.
so many ppl was crying.
was so busy comforting ppl.
hahas. was scolding melody.
hahas. sorry gurl. hahas.
i hope nobody drops.
and i hope everyone gets in 3/4
and theres no one who gets in 3/7 hahas.
dumb.
amazingly i passed my d and t and in fact i did very well. hahas.
dumb.
anyways monday we have lesson with mr tan =)
mr tan ROCKS my world.
sylvester ROCKS too.
i voted for him =)
yippie.
hahas. my aunt is just gonna kill me.
=X -dead-
hahas.

oh my gosh.
i just had a scare of my life.
how can syl and maia be the bottom 2?
why are ppl not voting for 2 of them?
why are ppl so dumb to vote for chris?
he so sucks. he is lyk jerry no 2.
only tat he has looks.
cant the ppl of sing understand?
vote for ppl with talent.
argh.
when it was left with syl and maia
i was lyk so clueless who to pray for.
oh my oh my. in the end maia got out.
i am sad coz she got out.
but yet i'm happy syl got in.
argh.
it would be a happier ending if chris got out.
DUMB.
i cant believe tat syl is always at the bottom
when ppl lyk me actually voted for him lohs.
DUMB.
argh.
why cant they tink of a better way then letting us vote. wtf.
why am i so angry?
hahas. i'm not happy tat maia got out.
i'm not happy syl is at the bottom 2.
HOW CAN IT BE????
STUPID FUCKING HELL.
=@@@@

actually i dunno why am i so angry. hmms. i tink tat maia deserves to be in compared to chris and leandra.

+rainbow

2004-10-20T03:11:00.000-07:00

wrap up ok lahs.
it was a bit sad.
esp the saying goodbye part.
why is it always hard to say goodbye?
haix. everyday i find myself loving her more when actually i am trying to run away from her.
i cant lah. haix.

oh today was a fun day =)
hahas. 1st half of the morning we played games.
quite borring lahs. bud i actually played at ALL the stations. can u believe it?
oh my. hahas. then recess. then give out cookies.
then went around the whole school for a tin of mint cookies. hahas. then after we found it went around the whole sch again just to find mdm xie.then end up slacking and playing with steff val. at the marbles section. =) hahas. ok lahs. was TRYING to build a bomb shelter and in the end everyone was so interested to destroy it. wads happening to the world? hahas. anyway my hair is growing. i dun lyk it =X hahas. yeah then i started to spray water on ppl =)hahas. sorry if i hurt u kaes? =X i'm sorrie.
but of coz to agnes ting i am not lahs. haha. shes so bo bo head loh. i got her bottle liaox still try to run? hahas. worse loh =) i'm smart i'm a genuis =)

[missing you is not the hardest part knowing i once had you is wad breaks my heart]

+monopoly madness

2004-10-19T07:51:00.000-07:00

cant the school think of anything beta for us to do?
a monopoly competition.
wad a joke.
no matter wad i am not gonna touch another
monopoly set for the next ten yrs
i am so sick of it.
bleahs~
can u believe it tat i even made it to the top 8 of the class? stupid and i had to play the 3rd round against the winners of the other class.
i loved the 1st round the best.
i din talk much.
i laughed much.
i earned MUCH.
$40 000 plus lehx.
i dunno how i get so much also. hahas.
watever the case. i dun care.
coz its O.V.E.R
and i am so glad. hahas.
tmw is another boring day.
hmms. i bet we are just gonna rot in class.
yups. hahas.
so late le i gtg to get my beauty sleep

+new bloggie

2004-10-18T08:19:00.000-07:00

hey peps.
i have moved here!
hahas nice template rite?
hahas.
tmw got school
got to sleep soon.
its gonna be a boring day
haix. sianxx...
anyways i hope the papers
are coming back these days.
hmms. tag me!! =)

yippie

2004-10-16T08:35:00.000-07:00

new blog testing
testing.
blah.